Judi Merriam

Loves her roles as wife, mother, singer, actor, director, speaker, and writer. Her favorite people on earth are her husband, Brian, and her two living children, Tyler and Kalina. It is her heart’s desire to shine a light of hope into the lives of those who grieve, especially parents who have lost children to suicide . . . Read more

Newest Releases

Empty Shoes by the Door: Living After my Son’s Suicide

Grief demands we stand face-to-face with it and admit the messy truth of our brokenness.

On the afternoon of December 23, 2011, Judi Merriam’s eighteen-year-old son, Jenson, took his own life-an act that blindsided everyone who knew him-changing her life and those of her family forever.

This is the story of Jenson’s life and death-and of Judi’s path to surviving without the physical presence of the kind, intelligent, and endlessly creative young man she never imagined she would outlive.

The suicide of a loved one can be devastating for those left behind and bring deep despair and seemingly endless grief. Judi was forced to confront profound feelings of loss and guilt and a future so very different from what she thought it would be. In this honest and soul-searching memoir, Judi reflects with grace and courage on the fragile and amazing, terrifying and broken, and glorious and painful experience of living life after an unfathomable loss.

Testimonials

Press Releases

“‘Empty Shoes by the Door’: Local woman writes book about coping with grief following son’s suicide at age 18” – by Indiana Nash

“Interview with Schenectady Author Judi Merriam” with Doug Goudie

“In an honest and soul-searching memoir, Empty Shoes by the Door, Judi Merriam reflects with grace and courage on the fragile and amazing, terrifying and broken, glorious and painful experience of living life after an unfathomable loss.” – Irish American Heritage Museum

“Recently, I had the privilege of meeting local author Judi Merriam…” -Article written by Casey Mulligan Walsh

“Congrats to Mohawk River Valley author Judi Merriam on the publication of her memoir, Empty Shoes by the Door.” -Post written by the Adirondack Center for Writing

Voices of Experience: Living After My Son’s Suicide

Living After My Son’s Suicide – Guest Post by Judi Merriam

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